A bookworm’s life… with blossoms in my hair

Such delicious, warm and sunny days we are having this week. Makes me really excited about all the things, big and small, that I’m planning for the next couple of months… This spring I’ll…

Get back into running and yoga. Use up my vast collection of lipsticks in various shades of pink. Enjoy lazy, sunny Sundays at the park. Make my new flat, a home, with The Boy. Spend blissful days in the glorious English countryside, again. Bake light and fluffy desserts. Wear flowers in my hair, even if just for once. Buy a bicycle, a wicker basket is a must. Prepare picnics to enjoy on long walks. Wear girly dresses and bright ballet flats. Participate in the Readathon, of course.

What are you most looking forward to for spring? What do you love about this season?

A bookworm’s life… when the leaves are falling

I’ve come to the conclusion that autumn is my favourite season. It always feels to me that this is a time of new beginnings. This year I’ll be…

Making a point of jumping on crunchy piles of leaves. Baking apple pies. Frolicking in the English countryside, again. Wearing tweed jackets, argyle socks, chunky knit scarves, crested blazers, wellies and all things british. Finally buying a teapot. Reading lots of classics and enjoying girly movies on cozy nights in. Participating in the Readathon, again. Growing herbs in pots on my windowsill. Heading to the park with a cup of tea and a good book. Taking up dancing, again.

What are your plans for the next couple of months? Are you excited for cooler weather? What’s your favourite autumnal activity?

What do you want?

That’s the question that totally freaked me out a few days ago. It seems like such a simple question, but is it really? I mean, I have no idea what I want?

One thing that was always there when I was growing up was that “anywhere but here” feeling. But where is that anywhere? When the time comes to define that, I’m going to have serious trouble! And if I manage to pinpoint a “there”, what am I going to be doing there? When asked the “what do you want to be when you grown up” question, I never gave the same answer twice. Over the years I wanted to be a maid (Seriously. When I was 4. But I wanted to get a college degree for it. My cousin G, the one I grew up with, wanted to get a degree as a shepherd.), an astronaut, Lara Croft, a dancer, an architect, a doctor, a journalist, an anthropologist, a computer animator, a scientist, a lawyer… Sure, as I grew older I managed to narrow it down to physics, but I still don’t know exactly what I want, do I want to do research, do I want to teach… so many choices… I’m so jealous of the lovely E, who has been saying she wants to be a doctor since she was 3 and now, at 25, she is doing her residency! I would love it if I could set a goal and work towards it instead of this Brown motion I’m doing…

My pro/con lists sure help me view things clearly and make decisions easier. (I used to be a bit embarrassed by all the pro/con lists I do, but then I met Gilmore girls and I thought that since they put list-making in a series I can’t possibly be the only person in the world doing this…) But shouldn’t I be able to figure out what I want without weighing pros and cons like it’s some sort of mathematical equation? (Which reminds me, I wanted to be a mathematician when I was 18, but university math kicked that dream right out of me…) Okay I think I’ll stop here because my mind is so scattered today the random thoughts in parentheses are more than the actual text…